Bi-Polar

Listening to: Richman - 3oh!3
Feeling: Achey

Hello fellow reader[s]
Nothing too big has happened since i last wrote, but a lot of little things have happened that have either made me happy or depressed.

And just an F.Y.I : I'm not trying to gain sympathy or pity from anyone. I'm just letting you know who I am and whats going on in my life. I won't cry if you stop reading, I promise. :P

Anyways.
I [finally] took my euro test. [complete fail]
Then i took off friday and stayed home. I realized how not fun it is to be home alone on a beautiful day.
I did absolutely nothing, except envy all the people who were out enjoying the weather.
It was a really depressing day.
My weekend was equally as uneventful.
I could have done homework.
But school has ended on May 4th. I'm just going to school cause its the law.
Well not law..but yeah.
Sunday night however, I finally got off my ass and hung out with a few friends. It was an odd group of people to hang out with, but it was fun nonetheless.
Monday it was fucking hot. I went to the memorial day parade followed by a huge cookout at my aunts house.
At first I didn't want to go. But my lord...so..much..food.
I won't even get into the details of how much food there was because I'm sure this blog has a character limit at some point.
Between those two events, I got to sit down with a friend that I miss incredibly. I mean, we only got to talk for 20 minutes, but I realized just how much they mean to me. We have this friendship that just doesnt exist anywhere else. It's pretty cool.
But anyways.
That brings us to today.
I was a bit bi-polar to be completely honest.
I came to school completely careless.
About school, work, anything that had to do with an education basically.
I didn't do any work, and I basically wasnt in class for most of the day.
During lunch, i found out that I made it into Comp & Lit [a college english course] and immediately I was ecstatic. However, I suddenly..crashed into this massive depression.
I wish i could explain it, but I can't.
I just suddenly was overwhelmed by life.
About how behind i was in a majority of my classes.
I was sitting in the library close to tears because I was ready to explode but knew I couldn't.
[I have a very tough time releasing negative emotions. That's why I have this.]
But of course that didn't last long.
I honestly pushed myself to be in a better mood when I saw my friends.
I hate being around them when I'm in a bad mood, I'm sure it makes them uncomfortable.
I mean..I'm trying, I really am.
But now I'm here. getting ready to do ALOT of catch up. I'm behind in math, english, bio, healthx354395810.
It's not cute.
So I guess that'll be all for now.
Thanks for listening to my useless ramble.



Embrace Life.
Embrace Love.
Peace.