Pieces

Listening to: Breathe Me - Sia
Feeling: completely beyond any feelings


I feel empty.
completely empty.
No feelings.
Emotions.
Love.
Hate.
Nothing.
But tears.
I hate my heart.
I hate that i care too much.
I hate that i put everyone else before me.
I wish i could just not care.
I wish good things could continuously happen in my life.
I wish i could think positively even after shit happens in my life.
I fucking wish I could just disappear for a while.
I wish i could channel my emotions.
Release them in a better way.
Right now I just don't know what to do.
I'm so close to giving up at this point that I'm in denial if I say i haven't given up.
I wish words didn't hurt so much.
I wish I didn't love so much.
It's a flaw.
In my opinion.
My heart is too big.
I love too easily.
and too much.
Would it be easier not to love at all?
Is it worth the potential pain? No matter what kind of love it is
between two friends
two lovers
two family members.
loving someone always leaves an opportunity for them to hurt you.
At least that's how it is for me.
It just fucking sucks.
I'm not going into details about why I feel this way so please don't ask.
I'm just...hollow.
I need to disappear for a while.


Embrace Life.
Embrace Love.
I can't do much of either.
Peace.